User blog:ZachOWott/Bye

Hey everyone. I've been thinking about this for a very long time and I think now is the right time to finally do it.

Ever since getting bureaucrat, the wiki stopped being fun. Almost instantly, I wanted to leave but thought "I don't wanna be the guy that has it for a short amount of time" I don't care about that anymore. In fact, as you've probably noticed, I don't really care about much on the wiki anymore. I loved admin so much. I learned css, I was very helpful, people looked up to me and praised me. I thought bureaucrat would be the same except I can manage people's roles. That is the case on other wikis, but not here. Basically since the first day of having the position, I've been stressed, I've been kept awake at night worrying about the wiki and what people think of me on it. It's taken a big toll on me and I don't think I want to be involved with it anymore. I'm super grateful for the friends and memories I've made here over the last year (and almost a half) and for all the things I've learned in my time here, but for all the great things I've experienced here, I've also experienced drama, fights, anger, stress, and more that I no longer want to be a part of. I learned a long time ago that if something that was once awesome for you now is not, you should stop doing it. And that's what I'm going to do.

Throughout my time on the wiki, I have been through countless dumb arguments and fights that have really made me feel terrible and I don't know why I put up with it for so long. I'm not blaming anyone, I've had my fair share that I've started.

Anyway, I have no more reasons to stay on the wiki. The cons outweigh the pros. So, there's no time like the present. It's New Year's Eve, I'm going to start 2021 fresh and focus on other things that bring me more happiness. I'm 16, I'm in 10th grade. School is more important, my irl friends are more important. So that's that. I'll likely check in occasionally to see how you all are doing, but I am going to basically block this place out now. Many of you I don't have an intention of continuing a relationship with, and some others I definitely do. You will know who you are. I have already left the discord server, many of the dead discords from this community, and unfriended friends who I do not really think of as friends anymore.

With that, I have some small things to say to some members of the community.

Spyro
You have been my best friend here since the very beginning. Thank you for always being here for me and being such an awesome person. I hope that we will continue to be extremely close friends. :)

Rater
I can now legitimately say that I met one of my closest friends by arguing over a comic strip character called "Chad" on the internet. Thanks to you too for also being such a great person and friend and for being the perfect person to vent to about dumb wiki stuff. I hope that we will continue to be extremely close friends. :)

To the above 2 people, I'd rather be called friendship biased and have such good friends than be respected by the majority and not have you two.

Ak
I haven't known you as long as most people here, but you are such a genuine nice and amazing person. I want you to be the next bureaucrat of the BNCW. Good luck and I know you'll do well. I hope to still talk to you.

Sway
You introduced me to the wiki, you were one of my closest friends here. You were a great bureaucrat and I'm glad that I was once your friend. It's too bad that we don't get along enough, but good luck to you in the future and I hope we have no hard feelings between us if we ever meet again. (Also please don't leak my location if you know it)

P-dog
You're a good person and friend. I wish you the best and hope that you do well in the future. I'm sorry our friendship ended this way.

PET
I know, I know, we're supposed to hate each other and stuff. But I want to genuinely apologize to you for all the times I've started stuff between us and I accept yours if you do the same. I do not wish to try again to be friends with you because I've had a relationship like this and it doesn't work out. However, I hope that the tension between us can now be gone and that if we were to ever see each other we could be cool with each other.

To the current staff
I know it probably looks like I'm abandoning you during this mess, but I hope that you can understand my reasoning from above and that we can stay good friends. Ak will be bureaucrat and Eddie will be admin in my place. I wish you good luck with running the wiki, I know you'll do well. If any of you need any help with css or something, you can always ask me. I don't want to formally appear on the wiki, but I'll try my best to help you with that stuff if I can. Thank you for being such great co-workers if I can call it that.

Lssj
I forgive you for the qwerty thing. I realized that you have changed for the better and become a much more respectable and good person. Hey look, what's that silver badge thing with the discussions symbol in it next to your profile picture? (Congrats!)

To wrap it all up, I want to apologize for every time I've ever started an argument, drama, or any of the like. I don't necessarily forgive some people (who do not appear on this list) but I am willing to forget about it and move on with my life.

Once again, thank you all for the memories and the learning experience. Goodbye o7

'''I request that no one makes pages about this or me in general. If you want to trash me for anything, do it in a private dm to someone with similar views please, that's all I ask. Good luck Ak, please keep my pages and profile locked.'''