Thread:Opheuchus/@comment-32609364-20191109053848/@comment-32609364-20191109084207

Not currently, but you do realise the way I treated certain people was just purely disgusting. Take Sharp Elite for example, he was in the wrong during our conflict, and he's probably the only guy to have ever truly pissed me off, but the way I constantly reacted and then smacked him around for his faults, I'm surprised he didn't just mentally take it out on me, which trust me, by now, I feel it would've been deserved if he just popped a fifty-liner on how much of a faggot I was to him.

And now I think about it, many people who left due to conflicts, I was quite involved in most of them, although not directly, but I still had a huge, and admittedly negative impact. I guess I wasn't that bad, but I was a little toxic in that respect. I've always somehow brought a negative vibe to certain threads that is honestly unexplainable, probably why I've been doing so badly socially IRL, and as of recently, I've been doing all I can to correct it.

Which comes to the main question: do you actually think I have harmed the wikia, in like any way? I can't help but wonder, because karma kinda hit me that year as well, with even the most private and unexpected, sometimes unexplainable problems, catching up with me at that point of time. 2018 and maybe 2017 was a very poor year in terms of the amount of drama I was involved in, and even though I didn't have any direct backlash, it didn't do well for who I essentially was.

It's not that I have much issues now, but the drama the wikia used to have, wasn't good for me mentally. I could downplay as one of worst moments I've ever had, even if it was just on the internet. It's good that everyone has moved on, though, but I still don't feel great regardless.