806 days until I joined the wiki, over 2 years. It was a big part of my life and really fun, until now.
For a very long time when people would ask the same old question “When do you plan to leave the wiki” I said never, and I believed that. I wanted to be with the wiki until it died, to see it evolve and be one of the oldest users on it, when everyone else in the past left, I wanted to be the one user that kept going. When I first joined as my self absorbed self I looked up my name on the wiki and got 2 results, I think they were names to a list or something, I used to wish I was older, but now I’m even being considered an og, which I still don't feel is right but sure. Now, trying to continue is taking a toll on me, I'm still bored a lot of the time but being bored is neutral, being on the wiki is negatively affecting me. Being on discussions used to be fun but now it's spammed with people hating me, and I don't want to continue. I want to do stuff with my actual wiki friends than argue with a bunch of random people on the internet, no one will care in the future anyways, but I am still so grateful the wiki was in my life because I found my greatest friends, but still in the past few days I thought people who were my friends weren’t.
I’m not gonna be reading any comments on this point because I know there will be a lot of hate, so if you want to talk to me talk to me on discord, though I left the bncs server and turned server dms off so I would only talk to the people I’ve added on discord, and that’s what I want because they are my actual friends and those are the people I would want to talk to. If we haven’t added each other on discord then there is no way to talk to me, I wouldn't want to anyways. Things will be so different in 2021 for me.
So yeah, bye.